Father's Day

This year, Father's Day will be bitter sweet. Though it marks a day we get to celebrate his crazy awesomeness as a daddy, it also marks one month our Lucy has been in Heaven. Though the kids and I will do our best to make Father's Day special for him, we all know Lucy will be on our minds and our hearts. (*I'll post a rundown of the festivities later-- I don't want to ruin any surprises for Dad.)


A friend wrote a blog recently about how father's often get forgotten about when a family suffers a loss of a baby. This is so painfully true. Most of the time, the focus is on mom, and how she is coping, healing, dealing.  Dads feel pain, without a doubt. Eric has been amazing through everything, but just because he is functioning, doesn't mean he isn't hurting.  I admire his strength, his positive attitude, his ability to pick me up when I am weak. I admire his incredible faith in Christ. I admire his love for our family and his dedication to our healing.

But more so, I admire his vulnerability and his real emotions. I love that he shares his heartache over Lucy with me, and doesn't keep his feelings secret. Never has he tried to portray himself as 'above' the hurt that we've experienced. I love that we are in this together, and our bond has never been stronger. I love how he gives our family, our hurt, our loss, our marriage to God and turns to Him for guidance. I love how great he is with the kids and I love how much they love him. The basics, I love my husband and I know he is going through all that I am feeling and more! I pray to be as much a help to his healing as he has been to me.

Lucy is and always will be daddy's little angel and have his whole heart, just like Dom and Sophie. For sure, God knew what he was doing when he gave me this man, and I am so grateful to have him leading our family and joyfully celebrate him this Father's Day. 

We miss Lucy dearly, but we find comfort in knowing even though she cant be in mine and Eric's arms this Father's Day, our Heavenly Father is wrapping HIS big daddy arms around her and all the other babies that are with him on this day and every day until we are with her... he is wrapping his love around all of us, too!  We rejoice in these truths and can't wait for that day.

Glory Baby, by Watermark. 

(*video says its a tribute to moms?? I'd like to add, this should be a tribute to daddies, too!)